I ask how goes it.
Haven't seen you in a minute.
Well that's a lie actually.
In reality we haven't seen face to face.
But in my mind your outline I can trace.
Is that you? No, another damn trick.
Think I might be catching the psycho sick.
Trying to focus but ideas keep manifesting
Law of attraction is just way too perplexing

What Lies Beneath

I couldn't catch a hint

But that addiction

It was something I couldn't miss

No, it didn't even have to hit me

My saving grace just lay

Out there waiting because it knew

How much I couldn't resist things

Oh, what a gift!

All I had to do was wake and

There it was waiting

Right in front of my face

I opened my eyes and

Rolled to the side and

Felt what I could only tell was

Some high feeling pulsing

Through my veins and pushing

Inside my brain and slowing

My aching, overbaking, mind

One thought at a time

Dissolving into thin air

I could feel it tangle through my hair

Until it escaped and wafted above me

Attached itself to my ceiling

Challenged me to my being

I couldn't answer but it knew, see

How every right and wrong I looked for

Right then crawled out from under

My bed and spilled on the floor

And all I had to do was pull myself up and

Go swimming through carpet influx

Yet it was the tide I could be far from

And my arms weren't fit for some

Triathlon fed by blocked neurons

Stuffed synapses had the curb put on

Their appetite for my preferable style

Of fighting my way through this while

Carving insanities into walls and

Praying that I'll wake up to a tomorrow

With just me and my songs

And my friends and my dog

And our smiles and care and laughter

And shared times spent sinning in

The eyes of our mothers and fathers

But we were just growing on our own time

Finding peace in our hearts and state of mind

We are just searching for a new kind

Of way to live without having to sign

Our lives away to some far away man

In a suit who will forever try to trap us

In his grasp and in his back trash

He hates when I figure his plans out

Which is why he provided me a soul guard

Keeping my destructive ideas in check so

They don't come get in his way of

Making sure I'm just another obeyer

Of some plan he came up with while

No more sober than I've been allowed

In the eyes of the bigwigs we're just

Children lost on our ways but

They can condition us to be numb

Forget the purposes Mother gave us

Live in rules She's refusing in hatred

But they will never kill our true freedom

I sing words of thorough disagreement

Sir, you can make me a vegetable in action

But these synapses will never fail to be active

What I Want

What I want
Can I get it?
What I want
Will I have it?
I want to stay happy
Never feel crappy
I want to stay with you
The things we can do
I want each kiss to be everlasting
I want to never be fasting

I want to eat the best foods

I want to meet new girls and dudes

I want to travel around the world

I want my memories to become unswirled
I want to have many places to stay
In the mountains or down by the bay
I want peace, no more fight
I want to seize the day and the night
I want to be a my own boss
Command my people, take no loss.
I want people to remember my name
Especially how I played the game
I want new experiences, one after the other
I want to gain the trust of my Father and Mother
I want to have kids who respect and love me
I want them to be who they want to be

I want to have vitality

I want to enter an alternate reality

I want answers, I want the truth

I want to hold on to eternal youth

What I want
Can I get it?
What I want
Will I have it?

$ + 0:00 = !@-@!-@)!@

It's a beautiful day
I've been wasting away.
Sitting in silence,
All thoughts are astray.
I think to myself of the time I have lost.
I think of great things and how much they will cost.
And how can it be the body can't afford?
The things that my soul will try to adore.
It's all time and money. These things I don't have.
When I'm dead and rotting I'm sure I'll be glad.
When space-time is time-space and nothing exists.
Even though it's all there and my thoughts will persist.
Then I won't worry of the waste I've become.
There won't be emotion inside the ashram.

Dream come true

I found paradise

By the shack on the beach

Strong Bomb in my hand

And my friend with no teeth

Sharing with me his smoke

And telling me about his love

His mermaid queen back home

And of the fish I shouldn't eat

My friends kept looking at me

Fearing I may be taken away

Nobody seems to understand

All you need is a little faith

Some trust, and much love

With that, this dream is yours

I let go of all fears for a few days

Walked through the streets filled with old ways

Smiled at my neighbors

Waved to my new friends

Salt in my hair and a drink in my hands

Nobody cared about keeping up

Their houses were worn and cars beat up

It didn't matter, they had no use

They had their land and their loves and soul food

Paradise

By the shack on the beach

Strong Bomb in my hand

And my friend with no teeth

How long will it last?

staring
glaring
wearing
caring
but will it last
as long as i want
i want you to stay
but you're set to leave
where do i go
i dont know
time will tell
if im under your spell
is it love
or isnt it
and what about my other feelings
should i think about it while staring at ceilings
will they go away
or are they here to stay
why do they always come around
they are just air bound
for me to intercept
but i try to stay true
and i will for you
but it doesnt mean i dont think
and when i do i sink
and it makes me question
my love
how i love others too
and always have
and always will
so whos love will win
its overpowring
i feel like cowering
but i wont because im strong
and will stay with you for long
as you stay with me
so lets see
what happens
and live for the moment
and try to not let other things interfere
and the sunlight will sear
my eyes from what they should not see

Sippin to Collect

sippin to collect
hopin to project
can i allow
but how
holding it in
and then i begin
making myself
not sittin on the shelf
fallin apart
but pullin it back together
when it glides like a feather
and the pieces come together
just somehow
but dont know how
dont really try
dont have to pry
but it happens

random rant

fuck you guys suck my dick give it another lick ur not all that and some fries its you i despise wrench your neck and hang you from the noose as loose as a goose hope it doesnt snap so that your stuck in an endless nap of pain with no gain motherfucker take it cuz youre not worth shit you heartless wench fudge packin wanna be is all i see just die now be gone good riddens im sick of your bullshit slip into the bottomles pit and go to hell before i yell and continue to rant

Error

Back to the grind,
Dispensing the mind
Heat is building up
and I'm about to find,
I'll say the same damn thing
In 15 billion ways
Like a fistful of rings
That hits you in the face.
University to learn
Behind closed doors they burn
Because freedoms never met
Which is why we yearn,
Why is it for profit?
Why is it for power?
Will all of this be worth it,
In your final hour?
Once again you need to brake.
Understand we make mistakes.
Analyze the why we live.
More about taking then to give.
You have opportunity and some wealth
They have no voice or even health.
System of competition.
Everyone an adversary.
I would like to petition,
No more monetary.

The Forest

I sit and ponder
then begin to wander
into the forest
to find my best
I pass many trees
get on my knees
and hope for it
then I sit
cross my legs
forget the dregs
raise my hands
forsake these lands
close my eyes
forget the lies
forgive and forget
my mind is set

Growing

I share advice with other people
Climbing up my judgement steeple
Seems I can't share with myself
A problem I have come to know
Choosing right from wrong
The decision doesn't take long
Is it better or worst
I know but don't listen
Simple pleasure and easy gains
Happens to leave many stains
After trying harder I have learned
I can hear what I tell myself
Less problems are now arising
Better plans I am devising

Older

As we age
enter a new stage
metabolism slowly goes out
activity has a doubt
start to slow down
without a sound
preserve familiar information
maybe not your last vacation
literacy and education
must spread across nation
to preserve mental ability
to keep your mind's agility
creating new connections
to avoid perplexions
keep the mind young
before it is rung

What do you love?

You can love your dog or love your mom
You can love to be hyper or love to be calm
You can love saltiness or love sweets
You can love cheese or love meats
You can love chicken or love fish
You can love surprise or love to wish
You can love a girl or love a boy
You can love a sport or love a toy
What does it mean to love?
Was it sent from the one above?
Is it a want or a need?
An attachment indeed
Both emotional and physical
That makes life not dull
So love something or someone
It will make life happy and fun

She Loves Me

Even though I'm in times of trouble
She comes to me on the double
I still have a smile on my face
It will leave but leaves a trace
Because I found her
She makes my heart stir
And she loves me
Something I now see
Say it again so I smile for a minute
The love flame has been lit

Make it the Best

Start with nothing
Make it something
Flip and reverse
It could be the worst
Add and change
Keep it in range
Scratch and scribble
The words will dribble
Suddenly the best
Far from the rest
This is the thought
What others have sought

Murderer

If Jesus forgives the things you do
Does that make it okay to do them
Can you get away with murder
And still enter his kingdom
Say one prayer before you're there
Then join the angels, the ones who have passed away
Rejoice and join hands
You're still a murder to me

How it Goes

Stare at lines
With no spines
All lies
That I despise
Write quick
With a lick
The first thing
I will sing
Slit my wrists
Put up my fists
End it now
Or continue the plow
Will it be great
My hopeful fate
Or will I be average
No a savage
Destroying all barriers
Shooting down harriers
Until i Die
My oh my

Cloves

Spark it, light it
Don't try to fight it
Let the smoke rise
To the back of your eyes
Taste how sweet
Now take a seat
Sink in, relax
Crank up to the max
Inhale exhale
How many can you rail
Light in the head
Could put you to bed
First puff last puff
What's in this stuff
All about the cloves
Growin in the mangroves

Love Boat

Trying to find the words to say
How should I let them lay
I think about you all the time
You're the corona to my lime
I want to be inside of you
But you have to want it too
I don't want to rush into this
It is much more than a kiss
It's the ultimate feeling you have yet seen
Making love is what it means
So when you're ready let me know
And I will give the love boat a row

Jurassic Lake

Stroll towards the end of the rickety dock
With a mission we must unlock
No shoes or socks upon our bare feet
On the last plank we take a seat
Our ankles lie beneath the lake
Ripples spread and the water begins to shake
My best and I blow rings through the air
The day’s illuminating sun is most fair
We share shottys and our minds float
Suddenly there appears a boat
We step aboard and set sail
Onward, behind us a trail
Looking up at the purple sky
Are we really this high?
Suddenly dinosaurs appear
A humble brachiosaurus is near
Over the hills and in the lake
We don’t bother for a double take
We believe in what we see
Just as she believes in me
I could live forever with her
The good in me she likes to spur
So we sail our boat till the end of time
Together we will always be in our prime

Words

Feel what you write.
Write what you feel.

Dreamin'

So I dreamt again last night

Funny how it was so vivid

Because I can't remember at all

How I ended up in my own bed

Maybe it was the berries I ate

Or tomatoes? Where'd those come from?

Or were they cherries?

I ate while wandering

Skipper told me there was a magic tree on campus

My drunken self must have set out to find it

Don't think I did

I walked (stumbled) the wrong way home...

So I dreamt I was sitting by the creek

In my loved backyard at home

Just minding my own self

And some buoys came floating along

They looked like the marks I sail around

And they were followed by two women

Wearing white laboratory coats

They were playing my game, science

So I hopped onto a float

And followed it all the way down

My creek turned into a river

The water muddied and brown

Good ol' NJ

It then narrowed until it disappeared

And I ended up in a marsh

The grass expanded so far

I couldn't see the water past it

It was like a prairie of salt loving greens

But there right in front of me

Were three pristine, brand new looking buildings

One was a home

One had on it's side a movie screen

And the third was a giant inflatable slide

With a moon bounce attached to the side

I was confused

But somehow I knew this was paradise

I stood with the scientists

We looked at each other

They didn't want to go in

But I did

The home was clean and fresh

Inside I found some friends

And a few father figure hippies

All so happy and welcoming

And all the young lads were so good looking..

(Hey, a girl can dream)

What they did with their lives I found out

Was nothing but enjoying living

They cooked delicious food, vegan I may add

They sat and they played music to the clouds

They laughed and they smiled

Didn't drink, but got oh so high

No cares in the world

Only that they should be kind to one another

I felt comfort and included

I didn't know them but I knew I would soon

I asked where the money came from, where did they work

Nobody had a clue

The world was theirs and as long as they respected it

They got everything they wanted

Paradise

I stayed as long as I liked

The scientists left to go back to our sad world

And then I woke up again to my clock radio

Simpleton

Am Em
on the bandwagon down the dusty road
Am Em
back to my cozy desert abode
Am Em E
with the sun crawling back under the horizon


Am Em
not too much goin on at home
Am Em
no internet or tv phones
Am Em E
just the pale moon light bout to hit my eyes and


Am Em
tell me what it is that we see
Am Em
holographic world for you and me
Am Em E
tell me the truth it cant be too suprisin



Am Em
Just for now pretend I'm free
Am Em
Escape constrictions of society
Am Em E
Won't be too long till all of us are dyin

Up and Down

My head floats away
It's been one long day
Face is on fire
I'm plugged in hard wire
Never been so hyper
Driving mach five in my Viper
Heart is beating faster faster
I am my own master of disaster
My hands and legs are shaking
I am constantly waking
Try to sleep but I just stare
Maybe somewhere maybe nowhere
All my thoughts are as fast fast as my heart
Pop the balloon with a sharpened dart
Try not to act as quick as I think
Try to find the missing link
But where it lies no one knows
Finally I start to doze